User blog:~Starlord Peter Quill/The Reason Why / I'm Sorry

Hello, Sukie here. I just want to say I'm very sorry for being depressed I can't help it. I ran out of my mess and I haven't had my meds since Saturday. I'm trying so hard to be string but I'm on edge all the time, I literally can't seem to take this anymore. What I mean by "this" is I feel like I'm suffocating and I have this anxiety that won't quit. I'm not trying to get attention, it's just I rather explain my feelings here in this blog. Cause really this seems like a journal. Also I know none of you would ever judge me. I am really trying to stay strong but I feel like k want to give up and I just want to break down and cry. I feel as if my heart is breaking over this depression that I feel. I feel as if I'm never going to get better. I'm sorry for always being depressed I'm very sorry, I just can't be strong anymore. All I really want is to just feel happy like I use to, but no with all things I was dealt with throughout the course of my life. Why did this have to happen to me, why can't it just go away like a cold or the flu. But no I didn't decide, this is a sickness that can't get better and I can't just get over it. One day I just want to be happy just for one fucking day....