User blog:General Phychodash/Guys, I need help

Hey guys, Psychodash here. I made a blog post today because, well, I'm just gonna come out and say it. I am not doing so great, or, rather I'm not okay.

Inb4 the "OMG WHATS WRONG?" let me explain.

In fifth grade I wasn't introduced to wikia yet, that was also the first year I went to this one camp, I found my best friends there and love every year I spend there. It wasn't until last year, in the middle of seventh grade, when I realized the impact of the people I met there and so forth. And, ever since then there was only one reason I was surviving school.

Even still, that reason was because I wanted to hold out for summer.

Did I make it? Of course I did, if I didn't I wouldn't be here. However, seventh grade passed, as well as summer. Though I have met you guys and love every single one of you, there's a tiny part of me that keeps crying out that I need to survive for summer. That tiny part of me is taking over, it became to the point where I started bawling my eyes out during class.

I feel my depression and anxiety have increased over this aswell, but I've done nothing about it or mention it to any of my psychologists. I'm afraid this whole "dying trying to wait for summer" thing is dumb and that I'd be laughed at for it. I feel like it's a dumb reason to be upset but I can't do anything about it.

But now, since you're my friends. I need to ask you a favor, I don't know what to do about my situation. If anyone has any ideas, can you help? Or, suggest or something?