User blog:TheAquuaHybrid/Info About Myself

>joining the bandwagon once again.

'I've never been diagnosed by a professional for any of the things like anxiety, so I'm not gonna just burst out and say that I actually HAVE them. Besides that, I'm too scared to go see anyone.'

First things first, mental things:


 * I often get triggered by the smallest of things.
 * This might include my heart rate accelerating, getting incredibly angry or depressed for no apparent reason, feeling like I need to go throw up, all of that lovely stuff.
 * Anger.
 * I can't really control it. Like I said in the previous statement, I'll get really angry at the smallest of things.
 * Depression (?)
 * I've been feeling pretty decent for the past week or so. Now, it's all coming back. Suicidal thoughts, fears, bleh.
 * Distractions
 * I get distracted really easily. One day, I might be completely on Skype, the other, I'll be completely on chat. Other times, I'll just be distracted with video games.


 * Bet you didn't see this coming.
 * I use hand cleaner when I'm done touching any articles of clothing. The best I can do to stop myself is just to use less.
 * This one, either.
 * I really like the taste of blood. Like...really.
 * I've cut myself (ACCIDENTALLY) about 15 times in the past 12-ish days, and I've kinda sorta licked the blood off of several cuts.
 * I often attempt to starve myself.
 * That's pretty much it.
 * I will listen to my playlist at any given time that I can.
 * It's as if constantly being able to listen to any kind of sound is the only thing that holds me back from panicking.

I have other things that I am willing to talk about, but for the sake of this wiki's rules, I will only share them in PMs on chat/Skype.