Board Thread:News and Announcements/@comment-25687287-20170414222025

Hey guys. I'm here because there's a few things I feel I should say. I made it a highlighted post instead of a blog because this is gonna affect the way I moderate and I feel everyone should be informed. This is in no way supposed to be a sob story and I don't expect any sympathy with this. I'm simply telling you all this because I feel like I should.

Back at the beginning of the year, I noticed my behavior was changing. I seemed to get more aggressive as time went on and so I decided to do my own research. Take everything I'm about to say with a grain of salt. This is only what I believe to be true from my three years of psychology research and the research of my current behavior. If any of you think I'm wrong from either experience or your own professional help, please tell me. I'm looking for a psychologist to see about this now.

I believe I have a very minor form of DID, or Dissociative Identity Disorder. This is different from multiple personality disorder because I'm still "me" and not anyone else. My attitude just entirely changes. This attitude change is called an "alter." In my case, my alter appears whenever I get extremely angry. I kinda turn soulless. I get rude, mean, cold, and uncaring. That lasts for quite a bit and afterwards, I go back to normal and feel like crap for what I've done during that state.

Things aren't going well currently in my life and I'm working hard to fix them. I'm losing friends, gaining problems, and my trust is fading with some people. I don't know why this change came about, but I'm assuming it's from all of this.

I'm telling you this because it may affect how I admin this place or the Discord chat. If I ever seem like I'm getting mad and then rude, gently tell me to leave and ignore me. That's the best course of action. Yes, that can be a weakness of mine that can be exploited by trolls, but I don't plan on letting that happen.

I apologize for bringing you guys into this, but I felt you all deserved to know. If you have any additional questions about this, feel free to PM me in chat, DM me on Discord, or message me on Skype. I'll be glad to answer any questions you guys may have. I'm sorry in advance if I end up hurting any of you with this. I'll try to give updates to you guys if I am able to visit a psychologist.

http://i.imgur.com/ul8q2T8.png 22:20, April 14, 2017 (UTC) 