Thread:Lapis Lacooli/@comment-27531018-20170226012154/@comment-27531018-20170305173204

As touched as I am, darling, and I really am, I believe you have misunderstood my reasons.

I haven't quit because I found my roleplays bad or underrated, not because I thought I wasn't doing enough.

I left because I didn't want it anymore. My spark to keep going on this faded. By the time I gave up on leading Elementals and QfH, moderating them had been nothing but stress and annoyance, and I would often pretend to be offline just so I didn't have to reply on them. Turns out dealing with more than three people, which is what I was used to, was not as enjoyable as it seemed during the first parts. Constantly having to mod over many characters, accept and deny newcomers, keep the plot going and make sure everyone was working according to my rules was infuriating by the end.

Both times I handed over the lead, I realised shit would break down in no time, since nobody knows how to host my rps other than myself, just like I couldn't host Smt or Clara's and keep them the same. Which is why I didn't really support either rp even after leaning back as a regular player.

If I make one now, stressed and against my will, it will be far from 'perfect', or even acceptable for that matter. I am grateful for the kind words, but I can't do this.